Rain drops keep falling on my head !!

Yesterday when i was running ... out of nowhere it started to pour down rain , it was kind of crazy but cool at the same time .. everybody running the golf course went and hide under the trees or stopped running to just trip out.. but for a strange reason i just kept going . it felt good and there was such beauty in it .. it was weird .. i kept looking up at the trees and thinking to myself "i hope this doesn't end"... well when i was done i figured thats sd weather for ya !
but this morning as i was reading my bible i ran across a verse in Joel 2:3 "For the rains he send are an expressions of his grace" Wow sooooo cool .. I immediately thought of yesterdays rain
If it wasn't for his grace on my life i could not have seen beauty in the rain.. i would have hide so i didn't get too wet ..
Whatever your going through let his rain wash you .. take hope in knowing that even in the rain theres Grace ... Its not always going to be like this ..
Next time it rains take a break and get wet .. its kind of fun
love ya

whats your #1

...Its easy to say "Gods first" or to thank him when you accept an award or when something good happens ... Its actually the cool thing to say and it shows that you are humble right ? Well at least thats what it looks like on the tv or when watching the video music awards.. You see all these people say" first off i would like to thank God for this award" .. PLEASE!!! I feel like God is looking at us shaking his head looking at us like ...man these guys just don't get it !!

I will be the first to admit it .. when something is great its easy to give praise and be thankful but when things are rough and your personally at the edge... well then ...where do u look... where do u turn .. do u turn to urself to fix things and rely on u or the things around you or do you go to God first ....
trusting in yourself is foolish, but those who walk in wisdom are safe..prov 23:26
Romans 5:3 We can rejoice ,too,when we run into problems and trials for we know that they are good for us, they help us learn to endure.And endurance develops strength of character ...
God allows things to happen for a reason he knows when you cant do it on your own .. Dont you think he is just waiting for you to ask him for help .. If your a parent then you know exactually what its like , your kids are doing something but just cant do it ...they refuse to ask for help when your standing right there.. instead they throw a fit start crying, until they get to the point where they feel no hope and then and only then they ask you .. the whole time your watching them do this thinking all you have to do is ask and i will do it or help u ... SIMPLE HUH !! think about it ...

what up !!!

So i am reading this book called "Captivating" that one of my best friends gave me & I am so loving it ..
It talks about the heart of a woman .. and how God created a woman so different and unique.. after his own heart ..
God created Adam in his own image (a warrior, protector, provider,strong, a leader & hero)
He also created a woman ...a compassionate , ready to forgive, loving, nurturing, gentle and emotional
Through Adam he shows us his strength and through Eve he shows us his heart!
What a cool thought !!


...A woman in the presence of a good man ,a REAL man loves being a woman . His strength allows her feminine heart to flourish. His pursuit draws out her beauty. And a man in the presence of a real woman loves being a man .Her beauty arouses him to play the man, it draws out his strength. She inspires him to be a hero ...

uhhhh I love that !!
Thats how i see God pursuing me to be as beautiful as i can be!
If i allow God to pursue me and be my hero then and only then can i be the woman that inspires my husband to be the hero !!~

broken ..

Isaiah 57 :15 ...I live in that high and Holy place whose spirits are contrite and humble , I refresh the humble and give NEW courage to those who have a repentive heart ..

Man when i read that verse I has excited because he was waiting to refresh and give me a new courage if i was willing ..YIPPY ... think about it ..when we are weak and at that place of complete, sadness or loneliness or just ready to give up..HE is ready to be our hero... give us a new hope and just simply get us through the day ..
I dont know bout you guys but i can use some new courage...
Lord refresh my heart and give me the courage in this world to live for you !
Get me through my week , my day and help me to remember that you have me here for a reason and a purpose...

friend till the end ...

Wounds from a friend are better than many kisses from an enemy...
Faithful are the wounds from a friend ...
Prov 27 :6

Some times its hard to hear the truth or even hear an opinion about yourself . It hurts when it comes from someone you don't know or even care about but when you hear it from a good friend it goes deep. Because most likely its true ( if the friend is a real one)..
Have you ever had one of those days where theres toilet paper on your shoe or broccoli in your teeth and nobody tells you ... and when you finally realize it, you get mad at your friends who didn't tell you .
Its hard to be a good faithful friend . It takes humility and an honest heart to sit with a friend and let them know that they may be doing stuff thats destructive to themselves , or that they may have someone in their life that is unfaithful . Whatever the circumstance is wouldn't you rather be a friend or have a friend that is willing to risk everything for you ..Kisses from someone who hates you or empty compliments are gross!!! I know I don't want a friend who laughs about the toilet paper on my shoe when i leave ...I want someone to laugh at me as they tell me ..
What kind of friend are you !!

For God so loved the world that he gave his ONLY Son that who ever believed would have eternal life ...John 3:16
Now thats Someone who loves you !!

short and sweet .. part 1

Whenever trouble comes your way , let it be an opportunity for joy! When your faith is tested your endurance has a chance to grow, so let it grow, when your endurance is fully developed you will be strong in character and ready for anything... james 1:2

Grow , Grow, GROW!!! that was the theme for me this week .. i had to keep reminding myself that GOD was in control (thank God cause i would have lost it ) . So often , to often life is just so draining . I'm tired , the kids are buggin, im broke, i hate work , blah blah blah..
If for one moment i would just stop ... take a moment and get back to what really matters ... Loving JESUS and spending time with him !!
In every situation there is a reason and a time for joy ... just open your eyes and look around you ..
Thank you for my husband
thank you for my family ,
thank you for providing a home for me
for the food that we eat
for allowing me to see YOU in my struggles
for showing up and never leaving ..
thank you for forgiving me every time over and over and over again !!

Ask HIM to show up and show you REAL JOY , no matter the situation ...don't let the demands of this world take away your joy!
All you have to do is ask ...

9/11 Bend down & Hear our prayer

Bend down ,o Lord and hear my prayer, answer me for I need help, protect me for I am devoted to you , Save me , for I serve you and trust you.
You are MY GOD!
Be merciful ,O Lord
for my life depends on you.
O Lord you are so good ,so ready to forgive,so full of unfailing love for ALL who ask your aid ...
Psalms 86:1-5
This country is in mourning.. Daddies, Mommies ,Brothers , Sisters , Aunts , Uncles ,Grandmas & Grandpas were lost on this day 7 years ago...
THis is my prayer to them and to you that you would seek and search for the one who gives comfort...
Raise up this generation of youth to be devoted to you LORD .. Change is what they want but they are not willing to be still and listen ..
Dont have itching ears and follow what sounds good but instead rise up among this generation and stand for something REAL...
Unfailing Love ...who doesn't want that!! all you need is to ask ..He did the work (on the cross) .. and so this morning as our country and many nations sit in silents i pray that .. The words from your mouth the thoughts of our hearts be pleasing to him... Ask him to enter into your heart and change YOU !!
LOVE you guys !!

Beauty ... whats that ??

1 peter 3:4-5 ... you should be known for the beauty that comes from within , the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit,which is so precious to God ,that is how the holy women of the old days made themselves beautiful, they trusted God...

uhh yeah ! try telling that to a women off the street and the first thing they would do is laugh .... but if you look at it and really think about what its saying , it's really what every woman wants
unfading beauty... right?!!! something that is so real and unmatchable can only come from God ..
our sunrise and sunset can not be compared to anything in this world thats real beauty ..
i have been a makeup artist for over 6 yrs and it makes me so sad to see young girls hide in shame with a bare face but when all there makeup is done the can walk around as if they were the only girl in the room .. full of pride in an air of arrogance. all because we slapped some junk on there face and called it a night.
what makes you beautiful??? is it the makeup , the clothes the latest cool thing out ...
thats what i used to believe and still fall victim to the latest fashion but real beauty comes from knowing GOD ..
i will tell you a funny story .. for years my husband would get up @6:15 -6:30 ish for work everyday .. never did i once think to get up and make him lunch or coffee to send him on his day NEVER !!even though i would get up @ 7 to get our son ready for school.. about a year ago i made a personal decision to make my relationship with God something real !! i asked God to get me up early enough to read and have some alone time just me and my bible.. well in doing this i had time and energy to make lunch and coffee sometimes even breakfast for my husband before he was even up. months passed and this became a habit, i developed a love for it (weird huh) well anyways .. the point is this.. one day i didn't get up and totally flaked on doing it and when my husband came home he was tired hungry & grumpy and said i missed you this morning .. (of course with a sarcastic voice) at that moment i knew that what i was doing made me even more beautiful to my husband .. by waking up a bit earlier and writing love notes and verses in his lunch revealed a beauty in me that only God can do ... so you see beauty isn't sold at M.A.C it doesn't come from the gym .. its comes from a heart that is willing to be obedient and faithful to God ...he gives beauty.. You could be the most attractive woman on the face of the earth but if you don't have God then your beauty fades !! yuk!!

My hope is in your unfailing love .......

Romans 16 :13

card board confessions...

I thought i would start this blog as a way of sharing what God has shown me and what he has done for me . I believe that this is a generation of women that are lonely and are searching for someone or something to pursue them ... To be desired...

I was 17 and grew up in a home that was picture perfect .. before i was born dad was a drug addict but gave his life to Jesus and now lived for him .. mom became a Christian a little after that. I have a brother who is 6 yr older .. financially we had our struggles but God always provided. I went to church , church camp , private schools and did everything right i even had a purity ring (vowed not to have sex till i was married) but i did all this because it looked good .. i thought thats what i needed to do i believed that since my parents had a real relationship with God that it covered me as well.. well when i was 17 i got pregnant !! wow the shock and horror that everyone felt... they didn't even know i had a boyfriend of over 4 yrs .. I was alone and scared .. i knew at that moment that it was God or me to be selfless or selfish .. fast forward 11 yrs and i Gods promises are still true never failing .. his love didn't depend on my love for him .. he loved me anyway... i have been happily married for 10yrs and now 2 children .. im far from perfect and i have a mass amount of growing to do but hopefully with this blog we can grow and dig deep into how Gods love never fails even when we do ...